I am glad that I stayed the extra night last night. If I had gotten back, I just would have woken K up (something she doesn’t need when she has such early hours and it would have been a bit of a rush for me. So I took this evening so I could relax a bit, sleep in and be all rested for today. It’s nice that I’m not working tomorrow. I’ll probably do some blog work (bit overdue), write an article for the month and just relax with the furrkids until K gets home.
K and I sometimes dream about where and what we want to be doing together 2 years, 3 years, etc. from now. One of those is where we’d like to be to raise our kids. NYC isn’t too bad but it’s very expensive. I’m also hugely limited as far as work is concerned. The other option would be a return to Canada (Hamilton, ON area probably so I could return to my previous job with the company) or perhaps San Francisco (where I could do either job). I’ve been trying to see if I could move into a course development role at some point as this would allow me to be anywhere in the world. Additionally, wherever we’d end up I’ve been thinking more and more about the idea of opening my own coffee-book-cigar shop. The coffee-book shop would be on one side while the cigar shop on the other. It’d be the kind of thing I could when I get closer to “retirement”. The more I think about it the less I’d want to retire but rather, want to find work that keeps me active, keeps my mind active and keeps my life active while still allowing me some flexibility. My grandmother didn’t stop nursing until she was in her early 70s or thereabout.
As for transitioning, I still don’t pass, which can be frustrating at times. But I think if I give it a few more months, things will change. There is a definite and noticeable change in hair and my voice, sometimes, breaks. I don’t think its gotten deeper on a regular basis but I think it’s working its way there. The guys in my family don’t seem to have hugely deep voices (not a baritone or anything) but it’s probably deeper than what I have now. It’ll probably be at least a year or two before I pass on a regular basis and that’s ok. I have patience. I waited this long, didn’t I?
Anyways, I better get going. Time to see what the rest of the world is up to and to stop snacking on these sunflower seeds. I’m quite convinced that is what’s causing my leg swelling. It’s a blood pressure issue due to too much sodium and potassium (electrolytes are out of whack). More fruits and veggies (raw) and water will help more than likely.
To close off I will say that I’m grateful that K and I can dream. There is a huge part of me that believes.. no, knows.. that those dreams will come true. My dream of moving to the US to be with her did and although it was a hard process that took longer than I figured, it happened probably quicker than most people would have experienced (about 6 months).
I am grateful I am going home today and won’t have to work (that is, be in front of a class) until Tuesday.
I am grateful to have a woman as wonderful, amazing, smart and beautiful as K as my love, my friend, my everything.
I am grateful for the furrkids and all the joy and annoyances they bring into our lives.
I am grateful that I can transition on my terms in my way.
I am grateful for my health and mental awareness and that it hasn’t completely gone (memory is still one of those “forgetful professor things”).
I am grateful that I can express who I am, what I believe and where life goes without any interference.
I am grateful for all those that take the time to read here.