Going beyond transition

  • Remembering TransPersons
  • About Linus
  • Pix by Linus

Lordy, Lordy.. Look who’s 40!

Posted on March 31, 2010 by Linus Posted in Gratitude, Life .

The Birthday Boi

Heh. Who knew, eh? Yesterday I was miserable. I lost internet access for pretty much the whole day (from 8am to about 10pm). This was thanks to Ma Nature and the Rains. Lots of rains. So much rain, in fact, that the interwebs “signals were lost”. The geek in me hears this and goes “Whut?”. It’s not like we’re doing morse code or something. To make it worse, they had no clue as to when the “signals” would return. I’ve now realized that’s just code for “Once the rain stops, then all will be good”.

Morons.

At least it seems back and stable now. As it happens, I’m teaching this week (well, couldn’t do it yesterday so will teach today and the rest of the week at least). And, to be honest, turning 40 really isn’t, in many ways, different than any other year. I figure I’m about half-way through life now and that’s fine. I look back at the first 40 and they have been interesting. Some things I wish I didn’t do, some things I wish I had done sooner and somethings I’m glad I did do. And I don’t regret any decisions in life. All those decisions brought me to the place I’m at  in the here-and-now.

There are times when I feel I miss out on family and seem to crave that kind of closeness but I know that I need only to pick up the phone and call them to see how they are doing. Perhaps sticky notes to remind myself as I honestly forget. I had actually hoped to have a birthday party (I haven’t had one since I turned 21) but since so many of my friends and family are in Canada (gosh! My Facebook wall exploded!) it’d be hard to do. Perhaps my 50th we’ll plan a big too-do or something. It is nice, however, to be remembered and I am thankful for that. For me, to be honest, it’s never been about the presents or cakes or anything like that. It has always been about the memories I can forge with friends, family and loved ones. Those are things I can always hold on to no matter where I am in life.

This year is going to be a gangbuster year, I can tell. I’ve made some serious headway on finances; I’ll be decluttering and de-materializing (no, no.. not a transporter thing; just getting rid of “things” and “stuff”) as part of the move to California (still looking like late June/late July); getting my driver’s license (in California); getting new work visa (?) to stay longer and work towards a green card; and so on.  Right now, I can honestly say that things feel right. I’m feeling whole (well, nearly whole — I still want to get necessary surgeries) but to feel so completely at one with one’s self is a novel feeling for me. And to feel it for the last couple of years, a blessing.

While I do miss talking (the little we did) with my dad, I’m very grateful for all the others who have come into my life.

So thank you, readers, friends, family alike, for letting me be me and for making my world this wonderful adventure!

Here’s to another 40 or more!

4 Comments
« Who knew Monday’s could be good?
I will survive.. »

4 Responses

  1. Donna Jean Loy says
    March 31, 2010 at 9:37 am

    Happy Birthday, Linus!
    It’s me, Good ‘ole Donna Jean from Laura’s …I just slipped in here to say hello and wish you a good one!

    Happy Birthday, Hon…

    Stop by when you can…OK?

    Huggs!

    Donna Jean

  2. Véronique says
    March 31, 2010 at 9:51 am

    A belated toast to you at 40!
    .-= Véronique´s last blog ..How can I keep from singing =-.

  3. Matt says
    March 31, 2010 at 2:20 pm

    I’m thankful to have a friend and mentor like you Linus. Happy birthday! 🙂
    .-= Matt´s last blog ..Walk For Kids Help Phone 2010 =-.

  4. Linus says
    March 31, 2010 at 3:22 pm

    @Donna: Thanks. I’ll pop by later. My internet has been flaky these last couple of days.

    @Veronique: Thank you! 🙂

    @Matt: And thank you for being a great student and friend as well. 🙂

Leave a comment

Leave a comment Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Pages

  • Pix by Linus
  • Remembering TransPersons
  • About Linus

Blogroll

  • Arwen's Website
  • Linus’ Flickr
  • Me in Claiming Masculinity Project

Other Stuff

  • Cigar Newbie

Queer Links

  • Butch Femme Planet
  • Joe. My. God.
  • Polymatchmaker
  • Queer Canada Blogs
  • Queers United

transgender

  • FTM Mentors
  • Just Another FTM Chronicle
  • Laura’s Playground
  • Les said, the Better
  • Questioning Transphobia
  • TransCanada
  • TransGriot
  • TransGuy Mapping Project

Recent Posts

  • Day 105: Whiskey Aging… DONE!
  • Aging Whiskey (day 7)
  • Aging Whiskey (day 0)
  • Small House Idea
  • Tiny steps still move us forward (long post)

Archives

  • April 2014
  • January 2014
  • December 2013
  • July 2013
  • December 2012
  • July 2012
  • September 2011
  • June 2011
  • May 2011
  • April 2011
  • March 2011
  • January 2011
  • November 2010
  • October 2010
  • September 2010
  • August 2010
  • July 2010
  • June 2010
  • May 2010
  • April 2010
  • March 2010
  • February 2010
  • January 2010
  • November 2009
  • October 2009
  • September 2009
  • August 2009
  • July 2009
  • June 2009
  • May 2009
  • April 2009
  • March 2009
  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008

Pages

  • Remembering TransPersons
  • About Linus
  • Pix by Linus

Archives

  • April 2014
  • January 2014
  • December 2013
  • July 2013
  • December 2012
  • July 2012
  • September 2011
  • June 2011
  • May 2011
  • April 2011
  • March 2011
  • January 2011
  • November 2010
  • October 2010
  • September 2010
  • August 2010
  • July 2010
  • June 2010
  • May 2010
  • April 2010
  • March 2010
  • February 2010
  • January 2010
  • November 2009
  • October 2009
  • September 2009
  • August 2009
  • July 2009
  • June 2009
  • May 2009
  • April 2009
  • March 2009
  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008

Categories

  • Buddhism (4)
  • CIGARS (9)
  • Daily life (61)
  • Dreams (1)
  • Finances (19)
  • fitness (18)
  • Gratitude (22)
  • hate crimes (19)
  • LGBTQ (38)
  • Life (104)
  • Novel writing (2)
  • photo blog (15)
  • Politics (25)
  • Polls (5)
  • recipes (7)
  • trans activism (25)
  • transgender (69)
  • transition (72)
  • Traveling/Work (53)
  • Twitters (9)
  • Uncategorized (108)
  • vegan stuff (16)

WordPress

  • Log in
  • WordPress

CyberChimps WordPress Themes

© Going beyond transition